Waiting to Start Living

I want the future
I exist in the present
yet I project my mind on to what is to come
waiting for the moment when I can be in the now, more often than not
In time the now will manifest in various ways at various times
becoming more frequent
until it happens often enough that my moments of lack
are few and far between
Until then I must stop waiting

My Allegory

In my mind I have often wondered who I am
Through a myriad of angles I piece together my allegory
Just as I have it fit,
some new equation
some pontification comes in
and I am inclined to start again
Seeking perfection,
the perfect union of I and myself
But I never change
I the observer
I the witness
This life is merely a vehicle
A wild horse to be tamed
A Lucid experiment on reality
Dreams manifest expectations
For the two are one
Under the sun
Where the phoenix rises
As many times as seen fit

Vein

I wish I knew where I was headed
I try to follow my thoughts intended brain in tangles toiled and fretted
By what is true and what's pretended
When will my soul be mended
my heart un-leaded
My time is lent
My money spent
And I'm indebted
to my own intentions

Floating

holding to the motion
feeling with desire I will be
swimming in the ocean
looking at the stars
reflect my infinite devotion
to Jupiter and Mars
and every thing that is just a notion
to me it is on fire
My home, my pyre
Far on the horizon
Fading

Deleted

delete is a powerful thing
in the new world of digits it brings
instant destruction
of scribbled constructions
no longer a chance to stream
consciousness ripped at the seams
with backspace delete
no chance to repeat
goodbye to the wastebasket dreams